Today I'm home with my brother , you know what ? I just answer a phone call for my brother is about the Navy, i guess they want my brother go join them, they say that they will came to pickup my brother for a visit... gosh , what a lucky guy... but he told me yesterday that he dont know how to reject them.. but i guess we will find out a way today.

I was sick all this weekend, its sad because i was sick when i had to take exams... but everything is over now i cant do anything, well i will let it go now........ I feel like i am stopping in the middle of the road today. i am always like that. dont want to move on, and get a life out of myself,.... but i was proud to said that i am out of a diet right now... how good is that? Ocean told me the other day i should love who i am.. i think she is right. why do i have to change myself to let other people to love me... they should love me for who i am. not for something that is not myself... i know what to do now... i am so please to hear that... beside my mom  was yelling at me the other day for the diet problem again, cause i had been very sick last year because of that issue... the doctor was mad cause everytime i saw him is about that problem...

I did find out that i am the luckiest girl in this world.. cause a lot of people care about me in this world... they love me very much... I am so sorry for everything that i had to been through to find out the truth.......

I love you guys very much too... i mean it ******

The quarter is going to end soon, that mean grade are going to be turn in soon... i cant believe months passed by so fast....  The sad thing that happen to be lately is that I think out of all the year i have been in school... this report card will the worse one of them all...I felt very sorry that i have been getting low grade in my english class..... and my english teacher from last year and my Great books teacher have to arrange a meeting with me try to help my grade...^^

My english teacher she is very nice, she told me that i can do better ... tears were fill in my eyes when she said that....She is the one that put me in that class in the first place....... I have been a very lucky girl.. cause all the teacher i have since i come to America are very nice....such a lucky girl^^

I did my lesson plan the other day with four first grade students... they are so cute, cuter than i thought.. they will look at me with their little eyes, i told them to call me Ms. Li... even know my last name is Zhang.. i am sure its better for them to remember me that way... i did brought a bag of chinese candy in, i give them all of it.... they draw, even get paint in their face...^^ so happy that i can work as a teacher that day...we will go back soon ... but this time i will think of something very fun for them to do^^... when i was going to leave they told me that they will miss me.... i think that is very sweet of them... I was going to kiss them, but the teacher was looking... so i will do it next time ^^

I am going to have two test on monday i need to do good at both of them in order for me to get a good grade in two of my hardest class.. so i am not doing anything this weekend beside studying... of course i do need to work ,,,, but the rest of the time will be for study... Wish me luck.... trust me i needed...**